Sunday, 22 February 2009

My 30th and new Job!

Well after getting my guidance from Baba Ji, I’m both shocked and pleased to say that I am now helping to set up the nursery for the Guru Nanak Nishkam Education Trust (GNNET). It was so refreshing to hear the vision about what Baba Ji’s wish for the Nursery and the Education for our littlens, a care provision with a Universal Sikh ethos. A nursery which instill values and nurtures qualities such as compassion. Duty, Strength, a sense of community and Leadership & Nobility. This nursery will be the first of its kind based upon the Sikh principles.

Baba Ji teaches us:

“It is only through elevating the mind of the individual that it is possible to transform human society itself. The mind is an immensely powerful took with the capacity to be either one’s best friend or indeed one’s worst enemy. The mind is both the nucleus of the Divine power with infinite capability as well as the site of the hidden enemy that can propel one towards greed, cruelty, lies, selfishness, arrogance, hate and condemnation. It is the cultivation and empowerment of the spiritual mind that creates inner peace which, when collectively marshaled, can lead to peace in the family, the community, the nation-state and the entire world. A spiritual mind is conditioned to undertake self-analysis which entails a process of self-regulation and accountability. It does not have to be subjected to policing and external forms of regulation. It seeks an alliance with the Divine that helps champion the cause of sustainable peace.
Unconditional heartfelt prayer, with utter humility, is the greatest tool available to assist the mind. When imbued with godly attributes, a connection between the Creator and the creation is established. This allow us to realise that, in diversity, there is unity”

With such teaching and guidance I feel blessed to be part of such a project…

Although it my birthday on the 24th we celebrated on the 21st and Gurudwara celebration on the 28th as I’m leaving the country to see my babies on the 2nd march. The party was so cool, like me best mate bally said it was different parts of my personality sitting on the table, 25 of my closet friends and family were there and I wanted something intimate! It was so nice as my friend Anne came from London too, we went to the gurudwara too where she advised me to carry with the blog. I didn’t know what to write as I was no longer with the kids… but let’s see what the year has in store.

My beautiful mum shes my strength and courage to be able to what needs to be done, Dad being inspiration mum has supported my decisions even at times raged about them but always come through for me…

Thursday, 5 February 2009

Patience and Acceptance

All my previous students and work got allocated to different tutors so work is very slow, but thank god I have the agencies. I’ve only been back 10 days but it feels so long without my kids, it has been so difficult I even got my first letter from Gagan and few days ago, what a little beauty she is – giving the bollywood dialogues about trying to live without me and she cant cope without me… kids LOL!!!!

Her words took me back in the moment of her head on my lap whilst I was reading my books, teaching her to mail, putting oil in her hair - I first got there her hair felt like straw very rough and dry it was so funni I used half a bottle of baby oil and her uniform had a huge oil stain when she got back from school the following day, then she looked me straight in the eyes and said:
“Didi you know for the 1st time in my life I know what its like to have a mother, you have given me so much love I LOVE YOU”

I too know the true meaning of unconditional love and being a mother to many…

It’s been fantastic being surrounded by kids with special needs, in a school with structure – but I remember my own kids more and how different the education system is here. I’ve been thinking about setting up projects and placements in Pingalwara with student and the younger generation from the USA and UK, think the younger lot need to realise how fortunate and blessed they - Nowadays (sound like an old bat) well kids take everything for granted. After everything I witnessed they should thank god for a loving home and loving parents and everything else is a MASSIVE BONUS ..It truly is!

I’m still awaiting for direction on every aspect of my life, its feels that acceptance and patience are the qualities God has me practicing at the moment which is really hard to swallow. Thank god for brothers they been helping me out big time, I’ve noticed when god wishes to teach you a thing or two he will also give you the tools to utilize to help you along the way, so as much as its been tough its also been a time of reflection and an opportunity to accept my current predicament.

I’m turning 30 on the 24th before I left, me and the girls had discussed going to celebrate in Europe somewhere, my good school mate sarb also turned 30 in December, so she wanted to do something too… My heart however is going back to India, my mums making plans to meet with her brother from Canada so YES you’ve guessed I am going to meet my babies… I cant wait and it give me something to hold on to, its gonna be brilliant and the best part if I’m not telling them at all!

I’ve also been in touch with all my friends and Biji, they are my extended family, I cannot believe how people can love and embrace you like they’ve known you all you life.

What beauty ... BEAUTY in its truest form